My world has become again shrouded in darkness.  This time I know it's just fog though.  It will not become the suffocating end for me.  I will not let it.  This is just how it was supposed to be.  My job is  a neverending soul sucking madness.  I feel like my cubicle walls a laughing at me.  cytoplastik.com has never been better. Who gives a fuck right?  I cannot believe I went in.  Why did I do that?  I was there to get spirited away... and I had to take a piss... what a mistake.  I cannot go back there.  Soul sucker! Bleeding me from the inside out, destroyer of dreams, the face of all my fears.  I hate that place... it reeks of death and hopelessness to me.  Kat cannot understand.  No one really understands.  This is so stupid, being all caught up about this.  She means nothing to you now. She's gone forever.  There is a new horizon that I am waiting to cross... I can see the rising sun waiting to greet me, with open, loving, caring arms.  I do not know where it leads but it will take me away from here... far, far beyond the moon and the stars.  To a place I have never known.  It's coming.  I can feel it. I can almost taste the black powdry residue your violent orgasm leaves me.  Happy Valentine's day.  Who's up for a lead blowjob?

I hung out with gwyn this weekend.  It was good to see her.  I wish she wasn't so busy with school.  Seems like a familiar scenario... We went to some place up in mount vernon to eat on sunday. I casually remarked about the giant phallic symbol and how appropriate it is to be in mount vernon.  She didn't understand until she saw the two guys walking down the street holding hands. How hilarious.  The food was okay. But that's not what mattered anyway.  Even if it is unrequitted.  What can I say, I am a hopeless romantic.  I have pictures, but they cannot capture her true beauty by even a hundredth of a degree.